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Ouija…

Friday, July 27, 2007

While everybody's talking about the latest blockbuster hits like Harry Potter, Transformers and Die Hard 4.0..here I am ranting about the movie I watched.. OUIJA. For some, it appears to be corny that I watch Tagalog films. I dont know, its just that hindi ko talaga nakahiligan ang mga films like Harry Potter, LOTR, etc. etc. I only watch English films if its a love story and Comedy, sometimes horror. Other else, not my type. Yung mga long movie na ganito, aantukin lang ako hehehe. I remember the first time I attempt to watch Harry Potter 1 way back college days, nakupo, nakatulog ako sa sinehan! Hahaha! Ewan ko ba. I dont care whether I can relate to many or not. Basta, not my type lang.

Siguro naman, others wont mind if I became a spoiler here. Wala naman sigurong interesado manood ng Ouija hahaha! Its a usual story about four cousins who used to live with their lola during younger days. Nung unang part young Iza, Juday and Rhian played it pero young Jolina was scared to join. Nakatawag sila ng spirit pero their lola managed to stop them by saying a prayer. 20 years later, their lola died so uwi uli sila ng province para dalawin. Then one night nilaro ulet nila yung Oiuja board (except Jolina again). That was the time they called the spirit of MAGDA. So after nun as usual minulto-multo na nila yung apat. Ang maganda sa movie is yung sound effects. Very effective. Nakakanerbyos. Pero yung mga multo nila is nakakatawa. As usual again, parang si SADAKO. and kung maglakad is parang pilay pilay. hahaha! Also some scenes they got it from the ring and the grudge. Yun lang ang nakakainis, wala na sila maisip na ibang style. So yun..nalaman nila is yung natawag nilang spirit na si Magda ay pinatay at tinapon dun sa dagat. So nung nabigyan nila ng magandang libing akala nila ok na lahat. Di nila alam na may kambal pala yung Magda which is Melda na natawag din nila at yun pala yung salbahe. Medyo bitin yung story kasi nga nandun pa si Melda. Rhian and Iza died here.

So there. Me and Lhanie watched it yesterday at G4. We ate at Kenny Rogers after. May effect din sa akin, natulog kami ng may ilaw. :P

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Mayonnaise Jar and 2 cups of Coffee

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24

hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2

cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in

front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large

and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He

then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the

jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas

between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was

full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the

jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table

and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the

empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to

recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the

important things–your family, your children, your health, your friends

and your favorite passions–and if everything else was lost and only

they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other

things that matter like your job, your house and your car. The sand is

everything else–the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar

first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf

balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on

the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are

important to you. "Pay attention to the things that are critical to your

happiness. Play with your children. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play

another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the

disposal. Take care of the golf balls first–the things that really matter.

Set your priorities. The rest is just sand." One of the students

raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor

smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how

full your life may seem, there's always room

for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

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Go home on time

Mr. Narayana Murthy is undoubtedly one of the most famous persons from

Karnataka. He is known not just for building the biggest IT empire in

India but also for his simplicity. Almost every important dignitary

visits Infosys campus. He delivered an interesting speech during an employee

session with another IT company in India . He is incidentally, one of

thetop 50 Influencial people of Asia according to an Asiaweek publication

and also the new IT Advisor to the Thailand Prime Minister.

Extract of Mr. Narayana Murthy's Speech during Mentor Session :

I knowpeople who work 12 hours a day, six days a week, or more. Some people

do so because of a work emergency where the long hours are only temporary.

Other people I know have put in these hours for years. I don't know if

they are working all these hours, but I do know they are in the office

this long. Others put in long office hours because they are addicted to

the workplace.

Whatever the reason for putting in overtime, working long hours over

the long term is harmful to the person and to the organization. There are

things managers can do to change this for everyone's benefit. Being in

the office long hours, over long periods of time, makes way for potential

errors. My colleagues who are in the office long hours frequently make

mistakes caused by fatigue.

Correcting these mistakes requires their time as well as the time and

energy of others. I have seen people work Tuesday through Friday to

correct mistakes made after 5 PM on Monday. Another problem is that

people who are in the office long hours are not pleasant company. They often

complain about other people (who aren't working as hard); they are

irritable, or cranky, or even angry. Other people avoid them. Such

behaviour poses problems, where work goes much better when people work

together instead of avoiding one another.

As Managers, there are things we can do to help people leave the

office. First and foremost is to set the example and go home ourselves. I work

with a manager who chides people for working long hours. His words

quickly lose their meaning when he sends these chiding group e-mails with a

time-stamp of 2 AM, Sunday.

Second is to encourage people to put some balance in their lives. For

instance, here is a guideline I find helpful:

1) Wake up, eat a good breakfast, and go to work.

2) Work hard and smart for eight or nine hours.

3) Go home.

4) Read the books/comics, watch a funny movie, dig in the dirt, play

with your kids, etc. 5) Eat well and sleep well.

This is called recreating. Doing steps 1, 3, 4, and 5 enable step 2.

Working regular hours and recreating daily are simple concepts. They

are hard for some of us because that requires 'personal change'. They are

possible since we all have the power to choose to do them.

In considering the issue of overtime, I am reminded of my oldest son.

When he was a toddler, if people were visiting the apartment, he would not

fall asleep no matter how long the visit, and no matter what time of day it

was. He would fight off sleep until the visitors left.It was as if he

was afraid that he would miss something. Once our visitors' left, he would

go to sleep. By this time, however, he was over tired and would scream

through half the night with nightmares. He, my wife, and I, all paid

the price for his fear of missing out. Perhaps some people put in such long

hours because they don't want to miss anything when they leave the

office. The trouble with this is that events will never stop happening. That is

life !! Things happen 24 hours a day. Allowing for little rest is not

ultimately practical. So, take a nap. Things will happen while you're

asleep, but you will have the energy to catch up when you wake.

Hence…

"LOVE YOUR JOB, BUT NEVER FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR COMPANY BECAUSE YOU

NEVER KNOW WHEN THE COMPANY STOPS LOVING YOU" — Narayana Murthy

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Not so nice weekend

Monday, July 23, 2007

0720 - After office, I headed to Market! Market! to buy some stuffs/gifts for Matt (my colleague's son) who's first birthday is on the 21st and Angelo (my cousin) which will be baptized on the 29th (im one of the ninangs). For Matt, i was able to buy polo and shorts terno at Big&Small Co. For Angelo, I bought him 1 romper, 1 hat, 1 bib, 1 pair of shoes from Enfant. And guess what, both gifts were all ON SALE. For all the stuffs that I bought cost me around 800php only (both store are on 50% off). Great finds arent they? And of course, I wouldnt forget to buy stuffs for my Janea as well. Gingersnaps are on sale too, so I grabbed 2 blouses for my little girl. Shopping galore.

0721 - Our Saturday afternoon went good. Bon arrived a little late (and drunk) as there was a celebration because their training has just ended. It really irritates me when he's drunk. Sobrang arte kesyo masakit ang ulo, nasusuka, at kung ano-ano pa. Ang sabi ko nga sa kanya kung iinom siya wag siya mag-iinarte sa akin ng ganon, dahil imbes na maawa ako, tatalakan ko pa siya hehe. He's not supposed to come with us at Matt's 1st birthday that afternoon but he insisted. So sabi ko, umayos siya don at huwag magpahalatang lasing. We're off to Max's Resto ParkSquare at 3:30 pm. We got there at exactly 4. And party was about to start. I participated in one game (shopping game - where I should collect all the things that are listed in the paper given to me) but I lost there hehe. Pano ang dami ko kulang hehe. There was a magic show where everybody enjoyed! Galing! Party ended at around 6:30. Nung nasa cab na kami, nahipo ko si Janea medyo mainit. And so Im right. Pagdating sa bahay mataas na ang lagnat niya 39.1. I was thinking what have caused her fever. Few hours ago at the party she was very active and all of a sudden bigla na lang siya uminit. I was thinking of tonsilitis (she's very prone to that) because she ate some ice cream and drank iced tea. Madaling araw she was very fuzzy, she cant sleep. So puyat din ako..

0722 - She still has fever. Pero bumaba na to 38.3. I kept on monitoring her temp, minsan baba, minsan mataas. So i thought of bringing her to ER kasi pedia isnt available that time. Pero nung hapon, nawala na rin ang lagnat niya. She became very playful and active again until evening. That night sinat na lang 37.8 temp nya. So I decided na if she still has fever today (Monday) I will bring her to her pedia. Thank God that she slept soundly the whole night which I thought it means she's feeling well already.

This morning she woke up feeling well. Pero medyo nanlalambot pa but wala na lagnat. Thank God talaga it was nothing serious. Baka napasama lang yung labas namen last Saturday afternoon. But I keep on calling sa house to check on her. Bon told me na wala na talaga. And it really made me feel good and worry free. And I hope tuloy-tuloy na.

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I so love FRIDAY

Friday, July 20, 2007

Yehey! its Friday again and oh i so love this day…

Reasons why I love FRIDAY:

a) weekend! MEANING - my work stops.

b) gimik time (sometimes)

c) Saturday tomorrow and it means id get to spend more time with my baby.

d) every two weeks, money comes my way (if 15th and 30th falls on weekend or Monday) hahaha! mukang pera..

e) I just love it.

HAPPY WEEKEND GUYS… cant wait til 6.

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Bonding

Monday, July 16, 2007

I am on leave today (see why on previous post). So I dressed up and brought Janea to the mall. Although feeling ko kakapusin ako sa hininga for carrying her but still, I decided to go.

Sa fx pa lang pasikat na ang bata. Since passenger seat kami nakasakay, kinakausap ba naman yung driver?! As if ang galing nang magsalita. Pilit pang hinahawakan yung kambio. Parang may alam sa paghawak non. Then nung may sumakay sa tabi ko, kinausap din niya ng kinausap. Tuwang tuwa nga sa kanya yung guy. Hehe wave bye bye pa siya nung bumaba yung guy. Tapos nung tinayo ko siya, maya-maya nagbu-beautiful eyes ang bata! Tawa pa ng tawa. Ayun pala, may katawanan na sa likod na girl. Tuwang tuwa tuloy sa kanya yung mga pasahero sa likod.

Nung nasa mall na kami, pinalakad ko muna siya. Pero inalalayan ko kasi gewang-gewang pa pag siya mag-isa. Aba at nagmamadali! Para bang excited at first time nakapunta sa mall. Napagod tuloy ako sa pag-alalay sa kanya. We went to 5th Floor because I wanted her to have pictorial at Child's Play (where she has 6 months membership). But this time, nawala ang pagkabibo ng bata. Ayaw ngumiti at humiwalay sa akin. Gusto kasama ako sa set. Eh hindi naman pupuwede. So we did everything we can just to catch her attention. May mga shots na Ok, pero konti lang. I printed out 2 shots lang. After the photo session, we went to National to buy stuffs for Yuji then headed to Kenny Rogers to eat. I had mashed potato for Jan and oh she liked it. Halos maubos niya half of it. Plus iced tea. After eating, umuwi na rin kami. Napagod siguro ang baby kaya nakatulog sa Fx.

I had fun bonding with my child. Kahit nagkandakuba na ako pagbuhat sa kanya (coz I cant afford to bring the stroller alone) ok lang. I had fun. I really had fun. Looking forward for more of our strolling moments. Just the two of us. Iba pa rin kasi kung kaming dalawa lang hehe. Lalo siguro mas enjoy if she's walking alone.

haay.. i love my baby so much.

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Wanted: Yaya

Naiinis ako sa yaya ni Janea. Nagpaalam magde-dayoff last Saturday and promised to be back Sunday evening. Pinayagan ko since hindi na nga siya nakaalis for the last 3 weeks (which is her decision na wag magday-off). Tutal sabi ko hindi na siya nagdedayoff so I allowed her to go overnight.

Sunday came and no yaya showed up. I was patiently waiting for her call (she knows our number) to advise na baka male-late siya. Pero walang tawag na natanggap. I still expected her to arrive until midnight pero wala.

Kaninang umaga, akala ko nandyan na. Pero wala pa rin. Dito na uminit ang ulo ko, pinag-usapan na namin yun before (when she did this the first time - yes, this is 2nd already) na its ok kung magtagal sa dayoff as long as valid yung reason at basta magpapasabi. Hindi yung sasabihin na Sunday babalik, naghintay ako ng Sunday, ni tawag wala. And that's what pisses me off.

When she did it first time, she was 5 days away. Walang text or tawag kqming nqtanggap. I was already looking for a replacement when she arrived. Ang sabi niya nagkasakit daw siya. So I understood (pero naghinala din ako kasi di naman siya mukang nagkasakit) pero pinabalik ko pa rin siya. Ang sabi ko sa kanya, ok lang valid naman coz she got sick. Pero ang ayaw ko lang is yung naghihintay pala kami sa wala. Ano ba naman yung tumawag siya sa bahay or mag-utos siya to call us. Ayoko sa lahat yung magsasabi ka ng di mo naman tinutupad. As if hindi kami amo. Parang ang feeling ko dahil sa sobrang bait ko sa kanila eh inaabuso nila. Its like "ok lang naman kay ate, di naman nagagalit yan". Kainis.

So ngayon, nakapag-leave ako ng wala sa oras dahil wala mag-alaga kay Janea. I cant leave to my lola alone. Bon has work and cannot afford a leave yet coz he's just starting. So bukas, anong gagawin ko?

If ever dumating yung yaya niya this day. I would never know what to do…

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What happened lately?

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Nothing. hehe. My week passes by and nothing happened. Oh before I forget, Bon has started in his new work last Monday. I just hope tuloy tuloy na. Yun nga lang, we almost dont see each other everyday! My shift's from 9am-6pm and his is 10pm-7am. So its either I go home very early (which I am trying to do lately, as in eksaktong 6 lalabas ng office) or I'll leave the house LATE around 8:30am (and so Im late too). tiis-tiis lang. Good thing he's off during weekends. So weekends will be something special to us.

Last Sunday, we visited Lhanie's rented house as she is convincing us to live there when she's off to Singapore with her family. The house is quite small, but OK for just the 3 of us. She is selling her aircon and ref as well. Rent is affordable and I think kaya naman namin. I think its time to live on our own. Time to spend with our own money. We've been living with my lola since we're together (when Janea came) and they are paying for the bills, food, everything. Our money? just ours pero kahit papano nagshare din naman kahit konti. Naisip ko lang na its okay to my family for us to live there. Pero shempre, mahirap kasi nakikisama, especially for Bon. Kaya we've both decided to move out. Start our lives on our own. I just hope we can surpass. Syempre, nandyan na ang pagtitipid, pagba-budget coz wala ng magbabayad for our bills. Kami na lang.

Im quite excited with this idea. Even before im excited to live my life alone. Kung hindi ako nagkaanak, maybe nagrerent na ako ng sariling condo! hahaha! Pero now, mata-try ko na. With Bon and Janea. Walang pakikisamahan. Kaming dalawa lang.. (and a maid hehe)

Yesterday, I went out with 2 of my daughter's godparents. Jonas and Lhanie. Jonas as usual treated us for dinner at Glorietta (Chef d Angelo) and a cup of frappe from Coffee Bean. Its really good when you get so full without paying a single cent. haha! Next time ulet Jonas! :D

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dad kills daughter

Monday, July 9, 2007

news

Nung narinig ko ang balitang to, nanlumo ako. Awang-awa pa naman ako sa mga batang pinapatay. Yung tipong walang kalaban-laban at walang kasalanan pero pinapatay pa rin. How bad and sinful these people doing this could get? My friend and i were talking about this news one morning last week. And the conversation goes like this:

Me: Grabe napanood mo ba yung batang pinatay at hinulog sa creek?

Friend: Oo. Ang sabi nila kinidnap daw yun. Tapos siguro yung bata iyak ng iyak kaya nainis na yung dumukot at pinatay na lang.

Me: Kahit na. Palagay ko di dapat pinabayaan ng kasama niya yan. Kasi knowing tatlong taon lang yung bata, talagang malikot yon. Dapat pag nagmall sila doble ingat.

There in my opinion that somehow its also the companion's responsibility to look after the kid, especially at this age na sobrang likot ng bata. Lalo na sa mga mataong lugar. Ang sabi ko, di dapat nila pinapabayaan. Lalo na nung nadukot ang bata or nawala ang bata na hindi nila alam kung sino ang huling kasama.

I seldom watch the news or the interviews of the kid's parents. But I often read on the internet that they are begging for the suspects to show up, and for the SM Mall to release their surveillance video. They (parents) are crying, begging, asking for help, and justice. I should know the feeling. Ina ako eh. Mawalan lang ako ng anak siguro mababaliw na ako. Lalo pa sila, nakita nang patay yung baby nila.

Then one afternoon while I was inside an fx going home (i think last Friday) I heard on the news that SM already released the video. And it was seen there that the last companion of Kyna was her FATHER. Yes her FATHER. I heard some passengers reacted on what we've heard. Each has their own "tsk..tsk..tsk". Even I wanted to say bad words out of dismay. Paano niya nagawa yon? Saan siya kumuha ng lakas ng loob na magpainterview at umiyak-iyak pa sa harap ng camera at sabihing maawa na yung mga "suspect" at lumitaw na nga which is siya din pala? Grabe ang balitang ito. Nakakapanlumo. Lalo pa ako nainis when I heard that he was under the influence of drugs when he did the crime. F*ck. Isang walang malay na bata ang nadamay dahil sa kairresposablehan ng isang magulang. Walang kamalay-malay ang bata na walang tutol na sumama sa tatay niya na hindi niya alam na papatayin pala siya? At first I knew that ang balak pala sa bata ay ibebenta. Napakawalang puso't kaluluwa. Eh kahit patayin mo yung tatay na iyon eh hindi na mababawi ang ginawa niya. Kakainis lang.

Masyado lang ako affected, sorry. But I cant help but to be angry with the father. He is just so insane.

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I hate Mondays

There are some reasons why I really hate this day. When Sunday evening comes, I really dont want to sleep. I'd love to spend the evening with my family especially with my baby. Sigh. Why do Mondays make me sick.

1. WORK. Means that I have to work my a*s off again. I know this isnt the right attitude to get LAZY at the start of the week, but I AM. I always feel so heavy when Monday morning comes. I dont want to go to work, i want to sleep more, i want to REST (weekend isnt enough).

2. Traffic - still related to WORK. I just cant get the difference why roads are so full on MONDAYS. Is there any difference with Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday? Are there lesser vehicles ending in 1 & 2? This explains my morning rush and occassional tardiness.

3. WORK Related again - SO many tickets (support) are coming in DURING MONDAYS. why the hell that USERS are working on Weekends, that they raise an issue that needs to be done, MONDAY? I dont know if its just coincidence or NOT. But really, my workload just pisses me off whenever Monday comes. Like now. But Im still lazy to get them done. hehe.

4. It really makes me sad whenever I see my daughter cry when I leave for work. The bond that we have shared during weekend is really something. So maybe she is thinking that I will not leave her forever. But when Monday comes and I have to go, she cries. IT tears my heart. I feel sad. And I want to go on Sick leave.

5. I JUST HATE IT.

haayss.. Why Mondays are so annoying?!

Monday na naman…..

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